Entertainment

I was not going to write anything this evening. I didnt think I had anything to say for once but I had itchy fingers so to speak and knew that as soon as I started typing the words will flow and I can feel them building up as I rattle away at the keys. I wouldnt say I had a screaming row with her this afternoon but I think we can safely call it a heated exchange. She still bugs me and she doesnt know why she does it. She has absolutely no idea how she made me feel and just the fact that she is so narrow minded about the whole thing. I try to shut it all out but it just gets in and manifests itself. I must say I am getting over her though. I see her in a completely different light and its like I can hardly remember being with her a year, my memories shut back in the beyond of a dark recess of my mind, locked and the key posted well out of town. I am quietly looking forward to moving now. I have something new to look forward to. I will cope with it all, even if I do need a little chat with my friends from time to time. Speaking of which it seems I have upset some people who I consider friends, but having had feedback from her about things that have been disgust between me and them, I assume I have been an embarressment to them. I was wrong to call on them in the days following my severe grief and depression. Well I guessed it would probably cause a problem but I was thinking of myself at the time and I really had nobody else close to me that I could turn to. Well, she has put me to rights and so I will , when I see those people next, apologise to them profoundly. I cant do or say more than that. They are her friends and I wouldnt want to cause them any grief. I admit it must have been awkward for them but 'she' seemed annoyed that I had even been talking to them.

I have had a pretty enjoyable evening watching a little bit of television, catching up on a couple of programs. But for the most I found a neat little website that reminds me of Pandora, a site that I could once listen to lots of music until they blocked countries outside of America. Well this one might go the same way but while I can use it its brilliant. I found music that I havent heard in such a long time. I made a great evening of entertainment for myself.

Well, there it is, a little piece of writing that has nothing relevant to the reason I first started this blog. I knew it would come and so hopefully will plenty more of my thoughts and reflections of days to come and things of the past.

Packing tomorrow, supposedly being helped by her. It might or might not happen but then, if it does I must learn to bite my lip. Just til the end of the week.

As this is a cut and run post, ie ie, Ive not checked for type errors or spellings or content for that matter, if it doesnt make sense to you then its probably because it doesnt make sense. Simple.

So... until the next post...