Never Been Happier

A few days ago, if you had asked me how I was feeling I would have said, "Never been happier". Then on Wednesday evening the woman I was engaged to for just over a year, the 'girl' I loved with all my heart tells me she has been seeing someone else for the last two weeks and went to bed with him on the first night. Not a relationship, just fun, but she wants me out of her life. She wants to be single cos thats what makes her happy. To be able to go off to a pub and meet a bloke and shag him the same night. Well at least she wasnt blunt about it.
For the last 24 hours I dont know where my head has been, but it wasnt/isn't in a good place. Ive cried more tears than I thought possible, Ive never felt so gutted or unwanted in my entire life.

As this blog is the start of a new venture for me, to come to terms with what has happened and what is going to happen with the rest of my life I will sign of now. When my mind is clear, then I will continue.