The days seem to be flying by and all I seem to be doing is work. My days off are wasted and I know that its all my fault in part. I seem to have had a mad fill of hospital appointments this week too and have had to shuffle my days around to fit things in.
Im finding myself struggling to do things or go places again. I think mainly because I am worrying about the cost of things. I barely have two pennies to rub together and for the first time in my life I am in debt. She still has not come up with the money she owes me and so I will be in debt until she comes good with her promises. Im still holding my breath for the moment. It might appear, albeit late in the day.
I went online last night and did a sensible at Tesco's again for basic groceries. The fridge, freezer and cupboards are all well stocked and will sustain me for a few more weeks. I also needed a haircut badly and seemed to keep putting having it done off. I walked past a hairdressers this afternoon and after walking by, I doubled back on myself and went in. And you know what, I had a great conversation with the lady who did my hair and it was so refreshing to be able to talk about stuff in general. We spoke about the FA Cup Final being held tomorrow and how it was going to affect trade locally for a few hours. We spoke about Iron Man, who I have no idea about but one young member of her family loves to run about madly in his Iron Man costume and everytime he does the sun shines. Idle gossip, god how I miss simple converastion. That lady might not realise it but as she cut my hair it was more than just a hair cut... it was like therapy. I walked out of that shop smiling.
Tonight I have the fun of setting myself up for a sleep study. I collected the equipment from the hospital today and was given a brief run down on how to wire myself up. Oh I can see problems coming up. The thing is basically a unit the is strapped to be waist and then wired and tubes conected to my ribs and chest. THen there is a small unit that goes over my middle finger of my left hand which I think monitors the oxygen levels in my blood. Another tube hooks up to my face mask which I have to use when I go to sleep, which is in turn attached to the cpap maching. This forces air into me keeping my airway open. Oh the joys of sleep Apnoea (did I spell that right???). Tonight I am going to resemble a pile of spaghetti... if there are steaming meatballs on top then I wired myself up wrong!!!!!
The reason for this study is that although I have been using the cpap machine for quite some time now, I am still having a lot of trouble staying awake during the day. The machine should have made some major difference but its apparent that its not having the effect it should be. So this is just basically being set up to see what is going on while I am apparently sleeping. Hopefully there will be some answers.
On top of all that I had another appointment at the hospital today too. This was at the hearing clinic. I have had a hearing aid for some months now but they would only put one in my 'good' ear. I didnt even know I had hearing loss in that ear until quite recently when they set me up for the aid. The ear that I am really quite deaf in has caused me a lot of problems over the year and which rsulted in my having a major operation on it in 2002. Regular visits to the hospital have been ongoing since then. Today the specialist made the decision to give the go ahead for a hearing aid in my deaf ear. Who would have thought it eh. They really did have reasons for concern putting a hearing aid into me 'deaf' ear, but it is going to be so interesting to see if this makes the difference I have been in need of for such a long time.
So its time to go wire myself up... until the next post.
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